A Day that Will Never Be Forgotten (:

National Charity League  

On May 14th, I was honored to receive a scholarship in which I hope to make a difference in women’s lives. This scholarship was awarded to me by the National Charity League; whose mission is to a mother-daughter relationship in a philanthropic foundation through community service, cultural experiences, and leadership.

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When I first applied for the scholarship I was skeptical because I questioned if I had done as much community service as other girls. However, when I talked to my math teacher, Mrs. Reed she told me she had been a part of the League and would in no doubt see me as one of their candidates. The more she told me about the League, the more I built confidence to apply and be part of this amazing program. Once finished with the document’s I was excited to turn it in and find out my eligibility.

 

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A few weeks later, I was in my English class and received a call slip for an interview with regards to the National Charity League Scholarship. Without even reading the call slip completely my heart raced, my hands began to sweat, and all that roamed in my head was what type of questions they would ask me and how I would answer them. As I sat down in the media center waiting for my interview I prayed to God that he would relax me so that I could speak clearly and not have a shaky voice. I decided to free my mind by reading my book, but realized a unique method to relax oneself that Mr. Yarton taught our AP Spanish class before the AP Exam. He said to place our feet firmly on the ground, stand up straight, and take in deep breaths. As I continued to do this, my attention went to my toes, which actually calmed my nerves.

 

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Once the interviewers came I wasn’t as nervous as I was when I first came in; I thanked God for his help. The ladies that interviewed me were super sweet, friendly, understanding, and inspirational. Having such wonderful ladies in front of me was a privilege because they have done and continue to do so much for our community by helping different foundations with their missions to improve our lives. Some examples are the Alzheimer’s Organization, Down Syndrome Foundation, and much more. I hope that in the future I can help these organizations blossom through volunteer work and dedication. Additionally, as soon as I finished my interview, I thanked both of the representatives and left with both confidence and worrisome about how I had talked throughout the whole interview.

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A couple of weeks later, as I was getting ready for bed I heard a jingle from my phone and discovered that I was elected as one of the wonderful ladies for the National Charity League Scholarship. I leaped with joy and quickly told me mother about the news. We both screamed and were super excited to receive my award on May 14th as well as discover ways to help our community.

When the day finally came, I started to get butterflies in my tummy to receive my scholarship. The location where the ceremony was held at was at Seacliff Country Club in Huntington Beach. The reception was absolutely beautiful and the weather made it that much more perfect to wear a dress. As soon as we entered we were greeted by wonderful women who were so amiable. They guided us to the food station, which was delicious and showed us where I would be sitting for the ceremony. After a few minutes we were ready for the ceremony and as they called my name I recognized three other lovely ladies from Fountain Valley. One which I know and consider to be super friendly, her name is Catt Phan!

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Proceeding our awards, the National Charity League awarded many organizations with a grant to help fund their foundation. I truly delighted to see all those amazing foundations that I wish I can be a part of with my mother in the future. In fact, I really wanted to join the Oak’s Homework club so that I can help kids get better in their subject area. Finally, we all headed out to the patio under the shimmering lights and the golden moonlight to enjoy yummy desserts and take pictures. The day couldn’t have been more perfect; the weather was nice and I had my mother and father by my side.

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Overall this experience taught me two things. One is that I can go into an interview feeling more confident with myself and knowing that people will be understanding and two how much I can continue to help my community in Fountain Valley. I am sincerely thankful to the National Charity League association for providing me with this scholarship and I hope to continue to make a difference in the lives of our society.

Quote: “A mother’s treasure is her daughter.” -Catherine Pulsifer

Awaken into a World of Hope

Swim Far Far Away

“A feeling of exultation overtook her, as if some power of significant import had been given her to control the working of her body and her soul. She grew daring and reckless, overestimating her strength. She wanted to swim far out, where no women had swum before” (X, 47).

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Throughout life we have all come across a moment when we seek to discover our identity and what our purpose is in life. We strive to uncover what we want to do with our lives and what the future holds for us. Our minds are filled with questions and decisions that make us realize how hard life is.

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This was quite the case for the protagonist Edna Pontellier in the famous novel, The Awakening, by Kate Chopin. The novel portraits Edna as a young wife who searches to figure out her true identity in the mist of falling in love with another man other than her husband. She is wrapped around her desire to be with Robert at times as well as being alone and free from everyone surrounding her. In fact, in the schema of spending a summer at Grand Isle, Edna realized that, “…she was seeing with different eyes and making the assimilation of new conditions in herself that colored and changed her environment…” (XIV 67). She begins to discover the meaning of who she is and what she really wants in life. We can all relate to this, especially during our teen years because we are growing and learning more about what we want and who we want in our lives.

 

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However, as the story continues, Edna loses hope in ever finding her soul purpose in life, when she recognizes that Robert is moving to Mexico without having consented with her before hand. As soon as he leaves, she falls in a deeper hole of confusion with her life and digs deeper into living farther and farther away from her precious kids and her dull husband. In fact, “there were days when she was unhappy, she did not know why — when it did not seem worth while to be glad or sorry, to be alive or dead, when life appeared to her like a grotesque pandemonium and humanity like worms struggling blindly toward inevitable annihilation” (97). She lost hope and found no light at the end of the tunnel.

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This similar feeling that Edna felt as she struggles to discover her identity can be seen in each and everyone one us at some point in our lives. Whether it be figuring out our true love, where we would like to attend college, and much more. With all these decisions we are constantly thinking of what will benefit us in the long run and as we take a step forward, we end up falling back into a deeper hole of confusion. Above all what we learn about these moments in our lives is not the frustration, but the fact that we realize how hard life can be.We begin to acknowledge that life is not a piece of cake, but instead a jungle full of triumphs and struggles in which we learn to uncover reality.

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Furthermore as the story proceeds we learn of Edna’s somber death. Although much controversy has been talked about the ending of the novel with the fact that it is too ambiguous, I believe that the ending served a much greater purpose for each and everyone of us. For me it meant that Edna had finally awakened from her dream; she was flustered with finding her true identity and being confused, but at the end she was at peace with herself.

Additionally, just how Edna struggled with finding out her true self, I felt the same way when trying to make my final college decision. I was between Chapman, UCR, and UCI. Each day before May 1st I was tormented with the decision I had to make because I was afraid of making a mistake. I knew that if I went to Chapman I would encounter smaller classes, a one to one contact with my teachers, and an amazing campus, which I loved from the first time I stepped onto the campus. If I went to UCR however I would make my dream become reality because I would dorm with my best friend whom I left sophomore year when I transferred schools. Since middle school we had promised that we would attend the same college and now that I had the chance to do so, it wasn’t such an easy decision. Each night I asked myself if I was ready to leave my family and move out to start my own life. This was one aspect that tormented me each night because my family mean the world to me; I am so close to them that it would hurt me if I wouldn’t see them each day for at least an hour. Finally, if I went to UCI, I was afraid of the larger classes, the fact that I wouldn’t be with my best friend, and how big the campus would be. However, this was the only school where I wouldn’t be on debt because I wouldn’t dorm there at least for the first year….

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Although this was a tremendously hard decision for me, I simply asked God to help me with this situation and let it be his will to let me make the right decision. After much deliberation and headaches, I made my final choice this week…. I chose UCI because it was closer, more convenient, and most importantly it was better for my major, which is psychology. Despite, my decision my mind continues to linger with sadness of not being able to attend such an amazing school such as Chapman or the fact that I won’t be with my best friend for college. We have promised one another that we will talk to each other once a week on the phone, go visit one another, and continue to grow our friendship as the years go by.

 

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This decision was one of the hardest ones I have made in life, but it showed me that life is full of surprises; that sometimes we just have to accept what God places in front of us because he will never give us a task we can’t complete. I also realized that now as I am growing up and starting to begin new chapters in my life, I will have to encounter more of these decisions on my own. And even if I do make a mistake, I only hope to learn from them so that in the future I don’t commit them again.

 

I would love to hear your guys opinions (:

 

Quote: “Be Brave! God gives his hardest battles to his bravest soldiers.” -Unknown

“One of the hardest parts of life is deciding whether to walk away or try harder.” -Unknown